My babies....

I know I have menitioned at least of few of my beautiful babies, and have even added a few photos of them, but I thought I would show all my babies, from oldest to youngest.

Obie 11. He was my dad's dog, but when my dad got sick we brought him in and when my dad died, we couldn't separate him and Coco. Haracts, and might be losing his heare is an Apricot Standard Poodle. His favorite thing to do, besides playing with Coco and barking at the mailman and scaring the UPS man, is keeping an eye on Athena when she is allowed to explore(she is still very small).

Yuenging 8 August 30th. My first baby, and my birthday present when I turned 17. He loves to headbutt you and stick hiss really excited butt in your face. When he gets really excited he drools a little.

PT was almost 6 when he died in January. He will always be in my heart and greatly missed by his father & I and his siblings, especially his "twin" brother, Chester. I got Pt for my high school graduation present from my mom.

Chester 6. PT's "twin". I got him in August and PT got jealous. I noticed their birthdays were only a few weeks apart so I called them my twins. Chester is also known as Houdini, as he is a master escape artist. He is half Siamese.

Lily 5. Lily was my very first daughter. Shets like a is very spoiled, acts like a Princehan herss, and has an attitude bigger than herself. She is a total Mommy's girl or Mommy's little Princess as we like to call her.

Coco 5 September 7th. She was Paul's baby first, but quickly crawled her way into my heart. She now loves her mommy more than her daddy, but is a little scared of Athena (she thinks she might hurt Athena accidently). She is a Red Nose Red Devil Pit Bull. She is a kisser not a bitter, as long as you leave her toes alone, but do you blame her?

Athena 7 months. She loves to purr her mommy asleep at night, and explore the house. She is atleast half Bengal. Her favorite place to sleep is on mommy's head. She hates that mommy went back to school since she has to stay in the bedroom when noone is home to keep her safe (we are afraid she might get hurt, since she isn't full grown yet).

Been a little busy....

I know it's been awhile since I last posted, but I have been going through a lot. Last September my grandfather died while I was taking care of him, from Stage 4 Lung Cancer. After Thanksgiving I found out my poor little PT had Hyperthyroidism, in December found out he also had Carcinoma, and in January I had to put my poor little baby boy down since he could no longer walk and I didn't want him to suffer any longer. I obviously was a depressed wreck for awhile just from my grandfather passing, but PT dying pushed me even farther into a deep depression with crazy anxiety. I started going to therapy and a grieving group at my church. January 31st, a week and two days after Pt's death he sent me a sweet little angel to help me cope. My little girl Athena is at least part Bengal, and has a little of Pt's personality along with some of Coco, Lily, Yuengling, Chester, and Obie mixed in with her own unique personality. We named her right, for she is very bright. I spent February trying to pull myself back together, March in the hospital, April starting to plan a wedding, and started going to school for Medical Assistant with Phlebotomy. It is now 29 days until my wedding and I am starting to panic, but then I look at Athena and she calms me down, just like PT could. I would like to add that I am knitting again, but only a little.

Athena

My grandfather and me a week before he passed away.

PT and Paul.

What's with the poems?

Well my grandfather got sick with lung cancer and I took it upon myself to take care of him. I watched him die on what would have been my fathers 59th birthday. Came home, couldn't pick up the knitting needles, I could not knit through it. Found out after Thanksgiving my cat(son) had hyperthyroidism. Still unable to knit. Found a lump on my other cat(daughter), freaked out took both to vet for various reasons after Christmas. Found out he had cancer, carcinoma to be exact, and didn't have long. Couldn't knit. Son has since died, daughter had her lumps removed and she is fine, our son sent us a new angel that has everyone personalities and is helping us get through these though times. I am sad to say I knit only what I had to, I mad my nephew a snowman hat for Christmas, my mom's boyfriend potholders and oven mitts and I just now finished another hat for my nephew. It has been easier for me to get through all my loss to just write. I write letters to my dad and grandfather to help ease the pain ( a friend who lost her father at a younger age than me suggested it and it does work). I also put my feeling to paper in the way of poems. If anyone doesn't like me posting my poems here and would rather me make a new blog just for my poems, please let me know. Also if anyone knows how I can get out of my knitting funk, please let me know.

Questions

Questions
2/9/09
E. Morgan

Hello?

Anyone there?

Why is she calling?

Who is it?

How should I know?

Where are you going?

What does he have?

All day long I hear questions,

But never "How are you?",

Or "Are you ok?"

Does anyone really care about me?

Or anyone else for that matter.....

Angels in Disguise

Angels in Disguise
2/1/09
E. Morgan

Coats of fur and tongues of sandpaper
They scamper and run
Sleep in the sun
When you are feeling blue
They purr to help you
Cats are true miracles- angels in disguise

Untitled Poem

Untitled
E. Morgan

1/30/09

The child sleeps
As the mother weeps
Knowing her son shall never wake.
Within her heart- she feels a great ache
But deep inside
She knows she will see him again- on the otherside

In loving memory of

Prince Tahoe "PT" Morgan

February 18th, 2004-January 22nd, 2009

Lost but never forgotten.

This poem was written after death of my sweet baby boy, PT. PT is/was a cat who was a bigger part of my family, like a child. If you know someone who may feel comfort from this poem, you may use it and change son to daughter, just please give me the credit.

too much time makes you think....

It's late at night and you are trying to sleep, but you just can't seem to fall asleep, why? because you just can't seem to shut off your brain long enough to actually be able to fall asleep. It happens to everyone but, it is still VERY annoying. Your mind wonders everywhere, some smart places like what you are going to wear to work or that date the day day or in the coming week. But the mind also wonders to silly places like what you had that morning for breakfast, and should I have run an extra mile to burn it off. I find tha that factt my mind goes to smart/scary places- that I should have my mom write out exactly what she wants after she dies; and what I am going to do with my fathers ashes. I hate sleepless nites, cause I never really think about nice things when my wonders at night.

Magic Yarn Ball Swap

Susan, THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!!! I received my package today (Thursday), but was just able to post. I got a very nice package, and while winding my yarn my dogs legs got caught (LOL). I opened to find two balls of yarn called Palette one of alpaca and acrylic in cream and one of 100% wool in a mutli colors rangind from tans and browns to cream and greys, and two WAY cute tiny candles. Underneath I found a sea of blue acrylic yarn. Below the sea of blue I found two more balls of Palette in the multi. When I finally finished winding the blue yarn I found:
sour fries
red hots
sour patch kids
a canadian flag sticker
fuzzy peach (candy)
3 glue sticks
a sponge paint brush
twizzler nibs
a strawberry tart (its like a candle but you melt it with another candle underneath in a special burner)
a glycerin soap pop (thank god it was labled or I would have ended up washing my mouth out with soap LOL)
a curious george pencil
2 little riesens (candy)
4 mini tootsie rolls
and a box of 10 twisted whiskers note cards
the pattern she included was one I have done before and loved and have been wanting to do again, this time for myself Romantic Ruffles

baby's first birthdays....

I realized somthing yesterday while attending my nephews first birthday. All adults think it's funny and cute to let a baby make a mess out of their cake on their first birthday, but then if they make a mess after that we scold them. What are we teaching them by allowing them to make a mess one day, but scolding them any day after that? I was that only adult not helping him make a mess, infact my fiance thought I needed some icing on my forehead.

My own pattern

I wrote my own pattern yesterday. I wrote a pattern for a knitted fireman's hose toy that could also be made into a door draft guard. It came to me while looking at a pattern for a felted firemans hat that I want to make for my nephew. I thought it would make putting out fires a little more fun.

Swap on a Budget

My package went out today and I got my too! Allison sent me milk chocolate strawberry yoghurt, a magic string bag, Tahki Yarns Bali, SWTC amaizing, a metal yarn gauge (i needed one!), anddark chocolate Pastilles. Thank you!

Stash Sock Yarn Swap

Kim sent me a great package! I got a strawberry scent port, which I love! Buggy DPN protectors, Mayan Chocolate coffee, dark chocolate espresso bar, and beautiful RubySapphire Yarns handpainted yarn in the color Ashley. Thank you Kim!

Treasure Swap

I received my package from knitstic yesterday! She knew me so well, I don’t know how she did it. The funniest thing is we both sent dye your own yarn. I had so “help” opening my package from my one “son” Chester as seen in the pictures. I got a bag, hand-dyed blue yarn, dye your own yarn from Lebanou- it’s a Oxford/Shropshire Blend of wosted wool, beautiful teal wool mitts, a book on dyeing your own yarn, and a chest of treasures. I got angora yarn, my “son” wanted, a coaster with a hank of yarn on it, a flip book of index cards, stickers of cats, some tea, and a beautiful stitch marker.

Packages

Within 2 days I received 3 swap packages and sent 2 out. I am currently in 6 ongoing swaps and received from the Treasure Swap, The Budget Swap, and the Stash Sock yarn swap. I sent out Budegt Swap, and Books and More Swap today, and my Treasure swap, and Stash Sock yarn swap packages have already been received. I still and working on my Saucy Swap, Magic Yarn Ball swap and Favorite Music swap. Will be posting what I received and pictures later today or tomorrow.

Dye Day

I was so excited about Saturday that I didn't sleep at all Friday night. After being up for more than 24 hrs, my mom and I jump in the car and head up to Maple Glen Pa to another Ravelr's home where we would be meeting a dyer on Ravelry.com who would be teaching us to dye yarn. We were the first to arrive, of course after Jas, who would be teaching us to dye. We waited paitiently for everyone else to arrive, and then for the yarn to be handed out, and instruction given.

We finally were handed out the yarn, given the beautiful dyes and the instructions - have fun. I started squirting colors and splashing water where I wanted to lighten, and squishing the yarn to get it to soak up all the dyes. When I was finally happy with the colors, I rang out most of the excess water, and wrapped the yarn up in plastic wrap and put it in the sun until it was pput in to be cooked. While my first skein was cooking I started on the second and then, helped mix colors for another woman who was dying.

I snacked and knitted a little until my first skein came out of the water. It came out beautiful! We had to swish it in clean water and then swing out the excess water. When the second skein was done I did the same thing.

I absolutely love both of my skeins and my mother loves her three skeins. I will be posting pictures.

Socks...

I love knitting socks, but 1's, 2's and 3's just take too long to get to your finishd project. By the time you finally get to your heel you are sick of your sock and just put it aside. That's why when there was a toe-up class at my LYS I took it. The class used size 4 circs and worsted weight yarn, and they finished quickly.

I made a pair for myself, my mom, and my fiancé. My fiancé has already put a hole in the top of his foot with his sharp toenails he refused to cut. He has asked me for another pair for Christmas and plan on knitting them with reinforncement thread to help keep him from putting holes in them, and he has to keep his nails clipped, or he gets no more hand-knitted socks.

I am always looking for new toe-up sock patterns, especially with fancy ankles. I found someone who wrote a pamphlet on Designing Your Own Toe-Up Socks which you can get off the Stitch Stud blog. Wendy Knits also has an entire book on toe-up socks coming out in April 2009. I will not give up my search and will let you all know what I find.

House to yourself...

There is something about having the home to yourself, even for a few hours. You can do what you want, eat what you want, and watch what you want, without anyone giving you any shit.

This weekend my fiance went to spend some time with his father. I watched 3 movies that he probably woudln't be interested in watching last night that I rented from the DVD XPRESS machine from my local grocery store. I rented 2 more for tonight, and watched 2 from my own collection I have been dying to watch, but he just doesn't seem to want to.

Swaps

I did a swap in May/June and loved it so much I signed up for 3-5 more, two that are going on now. I absolutely LOVE swaps, you get to know another person and make a new friend. The 2 people I am swapping with so nice, and I am so loving making my packages for them. I can't wait to finish making these packages and sending them off, and seeing what I get. I will defiently be posting what I receive on here, and maybe what I sent out once I know they got it.

Time...

There is never enough time is one day to do all the things you want to do. Doesn't that tick anyone else? You find yourself staying up later and later, just to get things done and then you finally relieze that you are so tired that you can't spell worth a darn, and that means time to go to bed. I am half asleep myself, so I shall continue tomorrow when I can remember what I wanted to say.

Peace of mind...

Peace of mind is always a good thing to have when you have children, or pets (that think they are your children and you feel the same way). I can say that before I switched over to green products I would never have NOT called poison control when one of my animals accidently got into a cleaning product. Twice now since I switched over to green chemical-free products my children got into my new products and I can honestly say I didn't call poison control, I called the company that made the products, but only the first time. I knew if I called poison control I would have to read the back of the label to them, and they probably still wouldn't be able to tell me if it was safe.

So when my cats knocked over my spot remover I didn't call poison control, I called the company. I told them I wasn't sure if my cats had licked any up, but I wanted to make sure it was safe if they had. They told me that they would be fine, to just give them more water just incase.

My fiance spilled some raspberry syrup, and after wiping it up he used a all-purpose cleaner to make sure the floor wouldn't get sticky. A few hours later I caught my dog licking the spot, but I wasn't worried, I just put down extra water, just incase.

I only called poison control when I dropped a Colace on the floor and my dog ate it. They said he would be fine, just have looser stools and to give him something to eat and drink.

I love the fact that I know that the products I use in my home are safe to use around my pets(children), my nephew, and my future children. I also love that I can actually clean (if I want to), especially my shower without coughing and choking or an asthma-like attack (I don't have asthma I just stop breathing like an asthmatic when I am exposed to regular harsh cleaners). I even bought my nephew safe training toothpaste and I try to convince his mom to switch to the childrens shampoo and body wash from the company I buy from because I know they don't put anything harmful in their products and normal baby and childrens shampoo and body wash contains formaldihide(GROSS!).

I am so glad I switched. If you want to switch too, go to my website, or e-mail me your name and phone number with the subject line "peace of mind".
bobasheebaby@yahoo.com
http://elissa.freedomunitedteam.com