My babies....

I know I have menitioned at least of few of my beautiful babies, and have even added a few photos of them, but I thought I would show all my babies, from oldest to youngest.

Obie 11. He was my dad's dog, but when my dad got sick we brought him in and when my dad died, we couldn't separate him and Coco. Haracts, and might be losing his heare is an Apricot Standard Poodle. His favorite thing to do, besides playing with Coco and barking at the mailman and scaring the UPS man, is keeping an eye on Athena when she is allowed to explore(she is still very small).

Yuenging 8 August 30th. My first baby, and my birthday present when I turned 17. He loves to headbutt you and stick hiss really excited butt in your face. When he gets really excited he drools a little.

PT was almost 6 when he died in January. He will always be in my heart and greatly missed by his father & I and his siblings, especially his "twin" brother, Chester. I got Pt for my high school graduation present from my mom.

Chester 6. PT's "twin". I got him in August and PT got jealous. I noticed their birthdays were only a few weeks apart so I called them my twins. Chester is also known as Houdini, as he is a master escape artist. He is half Siamese.

Lily 5. Lily was my very first daughter. Shets like a is very spoiled, acts like a Princehan herss, and has an attitude bigger than herself. She is a total Mommy's girl or Mommy's little Princess as we like to call her.

Coco 5 September 7th. She was Paul's baby first, but quickly crawled her way into my heart. She now loves her mommy more than her daddy, but is a little scared of Athena (she thinks she might hurt Athena accidently). She is a Red Nose Red Devil Pit Bull. She is a kisser not a bitter, as long as you leave her toes alone, but do you blame her?

Athena 7 months. She loves to purr her mommy asleep at night, and explore the house. She is atleast half Bengal. Her favorite place to sleep is on mommy's head. She hates that mommy went back to school since she has to stay in the bedroom when noone is home to keep her safe (we are afraid she might get hurt, since she isn't full grown yet).

Been a little busy....

I know it's been awhile since I last posted, but I have been going through a lot. Last September my grandfather died while I was taking care of him, from Stage 4 Lung Cancer. After Thanksgiving I found out my poor little PT had Hyperthyroidism, in December found out he also had Carcinoma, and in January I had to put my poor little baby boy down since he could no longer walk and I didn't want him to suffer any longer. I obviously was a depressed wreck for awhile just from my grandfather passing, but PT dying pushed me even farther into a deep depression with crazy anxiety. I started going to therapy and a grieving group at my church. January 31st, a week and two days after Pt's death he sent me a sweet little angel to help me cope. My little girl Athena is at least part Bengal, and has a little of Pt's personality along with some of Coco, Lily, Yuengling, Chester, and Obie mixed in with her own unique personality. We named her right, for she is very bright. I spent February trying to pull myself back together, March in the hospital, April starting to plan a wedding, and started going to school for Medical Assistant with Phlebotomy. It is now 29 days until my wedding and I am starting to panic, but then I look at Athena and she calms me down, just like PT could. I would like to add that I am knitting again, but only a little.

Athena

My grandfather and me a week before he passed away.

PT and Paul.

What's with the poems?

Well my grandfather got sick with lung cancer and I took it upon myself to take care of him. I watched him die on what would have been my fathers 59th birthday. Came home, couldn't pick up the knitting needles, I could not knit through it. Found out after Thanksgiving my cat(son) had hyperthyroidism. Still unable to knit. Found a lump on my other cat(daughter), freaked out took both to vet for various reasons after Christmas. Found out he had cancer, carcinoma to be exact, and didn't have long. Couldn't knit. Son has since died, daughter had her lumps removed and she is fine, our son sent us a new angel that has everyone personalities and is helping us get through these though times. I am sad to say I knit only what I had to, I mad my nephew a snowman hat for Christmas, my mom's boyfriend potholders and oven mitts and I just now finished another hat for my nephew. It has been easier for me to get through all my loss to just write. I write letters to my dad and grandfather to help ease the pain ( a friend who lost her father at a younger age than me suggested it and it does work). I also put my feeling to paper in the way of poems. If anyone doesn't like me posting my poems here and would rather me make a new blog just for my poems, please let me know. Also if anyone knows how I can get out of my knitting funk, please let me know.

Questions

Questions
2/9/09
E. Morgan

Hello?

Anyone there?

Why is she calling?

Who is it?

How should I know?

Where are you going?

What does he have?

All day long I hear questions,

But never "How are you?",

Or "Are you ok?"

Does anyone really care about me?

Or anyone else for that matter.....

Angels in Disguise

Angels in Disguise
2/1/09
E. Morgan

Coats of fur and tongues of sandpaper
They scamper and run
Sleep in the sun
When you are feeling blue
They purr to help you
Cats are true miracles- angels in disguise

Untitled Poem

Untitled
E. Morgan

1/30/09

The child sleeps
As the mother weeps
Knowing her son shall never wake.
Within her heart- she feels a great ache
But deep inside
She knows she will see him again- on the otherside

In loving memory of

Prince Tahoe "PT" Morgan

February 18th, 2004-January 22nd, 2009

Lost but never forgotten.

This poem was written after death of my sweet baby boy, PT. PT is/was a cat who was a bigger part of my family, like a child. If you know someone who may feel comfort from this poem, you may use it and change son to daughter, just please give me the credit.

too much time makes you think....

It's late at night and you are trying to sleep, but you just can't seem to fall asleep, why? because you just can't seem to shut off your brain long enough to actually be able to fall asleep. It happens to everyone but, it is still VERY annoying. Your mind wonders everywhere, some smart places like what you are going to wear to work or that date the day day or in the coming week. But the mind also wonders to silly places like what you had that morning for breakfast, and should I have run an extra mile to burn it off. I find tha that factt my mind goes to smart/scary places- that I should have my mom write out exactly what she wants after she dies; and what I am going to do with my fathers ashes. I hate sleepless nites, cause I never really think about nice things when my wonders at night.